I recently made a commitment to myself. The deal was, I would show up on my Facebook business page twice per week (Tuesdays and Fridays) with an original, heart-felt post.
And then this week happened. It’s been a bit crazy, with appointments and meetings and client sessions, along with school stuff, holiday stuff, “regular life” stuff, etc etc etc.
Today was no less busy, and arriving home tonight I remembered I still hadn’t written today’s post. There was a part of me that wanted to blow it off.
This part of me said all the right things, things like:
“It’s been a long week and I’m tired.”
“It’s not that big of a deal.”
“It’s not like anyone else really EXPECTS me to post today (I haven’t made any announcements or anything).”
“It’s getting late. No one’s even on Facebook right now, it’s not like they’re going to miss it.”
“I can always do it later, no one even has to know.” And so on.
It would have been so easy to give in to this part of myself (that little voice sounds so rational and reasonable, and can be so darn convincing!) I was very tempted to just put it off until tomorrow. VERY tempted.
And then I realized, by listening to that voice, I’d be cheating on myself.
Yes, no one else would have to know. But I’d know.
This may not seem like a big deal – after all, it’s just a Facebook post, right? That’s true, and yet the post itself isn’t really the issue. The post itself is actually irrelevant.
It’s all about the commitment.
Failing to honor my commitments to myself is a form of self-betrayal. And I don’t want to betray myself anymore. So I sat down and wrote this post, mainly because I committed to myself that I would, but also in hopes that someone reading it will recognize themselves in these words.
Maybe it’s someone who wants to get up early to exercise because she knows she feels SO MUCH BETTER when she does, but still keeps hitting the snooze.
Or maybe it’s someone who’s desperate to get the hell out of their toxic job, but keeps putting off working on her resume.
Or maybe it’s someone who longs to reconnect with her sense of passion and purpose, but keeps avoiding putting herself out there and trying new things.
If this is you, I want to share from my heart to yours, I feel you. It’s hard sometimes, especially when our commitments involve new, challenging, and often scary things.
But my invitation to you is to commit to yourself that you will do whatever it is that you’re truly needing right now. Mind you, I don’t mean those things you think you “should” do, but you really don’t care that much about. I’m talking about those things that you know, deep in your heart, that you’re being called to do.
Commit to those things. Make a sacred pact that you will not, under any circumstances, betray yourself.
And then honor your commitment. 💗